Living Life As Is

Being a former captive to diet culture is similar in some ways to many addictions. It will always be an issue. With God’s grace it will become less and less of an issue, but I’m beginning to see that my hope for a quick and full recovery may have been a bit naive. 

I’m writing this from Myrtle Beach, SC and am thoroughly enjoying the sunshine, waves, and change of pace. But as I was preparing to come here, doing the packing, wardrobe choices, and some food prep, I found myself obsessing over the current size of my body. I ‘needed’ a mani/pedi. My bank account held less than I would have liked going into this week. I desperately would like to be feeling more confident. 

And that’s when it hit me. I was listening to the wrong voice … again. I was allowing my contentment and confidence to come from my outward appearance and the world’s standard. I had my eyes on me.

So, I deliberately reminded myself of Who I am living for. I prayed for encounters during this week of vacation which would bless others. I thanked God for the opportunity to even be at the beach! What a blessing! 

Thankfully, my heart softened. 

I relaxed. 

When my eyes are on my beautiful, loving Father, everything is full of hope and promise and future and joy. He keeps me honest and focused on the right things. He helps me to see others rather than only fixating on me. 

The world is much brighter, bigger, and beautiful when I remember that I am a child of the Most High and He has good things in store for me. He has work for me to accomplish. 

I can do that today, as I am.